I'm back..

I know...it's been too long. First off anything I post in MY blog is mearly my opinion and my feelings. I do not set out to offend or hurt anyone, and view this as a tool, a journal, my day to day happenings etc, for you my friends, family and public to read. IF YOU DO NOT LIKE WHAT I WRITE DO NOT VISIT. PERIOD!!! I have been contemplating this following post for awhile and have been wanting to find just the right words without sounding too harsh and to personal.

It has been a very crazy last few months.......my last post was October 4th...I know. Crazy.

I would like to take a moment to say that I am extremely grateful and thankful for those friends and family of mine who have been very supportive of me and my life while Rick has been in Iraq. Nobody knows just how hard it is to be without your other half for such a period of time. The daily calls, chats, and visits, etc from you all really help the time pass and makes it that much easier. Anyone can say they SUPPORT people, but unless you act upon it or show it, in my opinion it is just all talk. There are people who have really stepped up and been supportive in so many ways, and I appreciate that so much. Then there are others who after disappointment have not been very supportive in many ways or not at all. Which is upsetting and adds a whole different realm of stress of it's own. It's not one person or another, but several, people I thought would really step up, and haven't. I am the type of person who would bend over backwards to help someone else out. It don't have to be with money or gifts, etc but a call, a visit, etc does wonders. I wish people truly understood how hard it really is when your other half leaves. You get used to running things a certain way. The man has the things he does, and the woman has the things she does. Well imagine having that taken away from you in one day, and everything he did, automatically becomes your responsibility. So now not only am I left to worry about a husband who may be in harm's way in a War torn foreign country. I am left with grieving kids, a void in my heart and all of the tasks with running a household. All while trying to keep a smile on my face, because I don't want to my kids to know that I too am worried about daddy possibly being in harms way. It is a lot of work and I give kudos to all single parents out there who do this on a daily basis. It DEFINITELY is a job in itself that no amount of compensation is worth. If I were paid for all the tasks I do, I would truly be a MILLIONAIRE. I also give thanks to all the military families past, present, and future who have and will go through the same things I have gone through.


Krissy- You truly are my sister.....we may not be blood related, but you are my sister. I have really appreciated the constant calls, etc to see how things are going. I appreciate the support from you with conversation when I need someone to talk to...I have appreciated it a whole lot. I just want to say THANK YOU for being there from day one.

Lindsey-You too are a sister. You are easy to relate to as we have said we have hubby's with very similar occupations, yours being the Airforce and mine being Army, and similar as in attitudes and demeanor. We can relate on a whole other level. You have been a constant, and I too want to say thank you for being their when I need you. I appreciate you a whole lot as well.

Jenn-God is great! Even when I think he is not. I appreciate him giving us an opportunity for paths to cross. I have really enjoyed getting to know you for you and I know your technically not family yet, but I already consider you as my S-I-L. You are a great person, head strong and I value your blunt opinions when I ask for them. lol. I look forward to meeting all my nieces and nephew aka the other Nicholas when summer arrives. I have appreciated our long conversations on life, and the military aspect of everything. You are a STRONG AND WONDERFUL WOMAN that I am glad I have had the chance to get to know. Thank You!

My Family- My family has been very supportive. My sister and I have become closer in many ways. She has been supportive and there when I need a little breather from my kids. She is going to be a mom twice, as she adopted her first child after thinking she was unable to have kids of her own. My nephews adoption was finalized in May '09, and shortly after- a few months later they found out with much joy they are expecting a little girl and are due in April. Thanks sissy for being there!!
My Mom- Well for being the wonderful person she is. She has too been here for me while Rick is deployed to help out with the kids, to think of fun things to do to get out of dodge, to talk to when needed. She has been a great help too for Rick, if it weren't for her, I would not have got flowers on my birthday, or had a cake at dinner the night we went out. Rick called mom up and said "hey would ya mind doing me a favor" and my mom made it happen. I love you mom. You are a wonderful mom, and an even more wonderful grandmother to my kids. THANK YOU.

I just wanted to take a minute to say thank you to those who have been supportive to me in many ways, and this is just some of the stuff and ways you guys have shown support to me. You know if you all need anything, I am and always here for you all as well.


Now on to a more uplifting and inspiring blog........crocheting.....Hee Heeee. It too has been a friend and helps me pass the time. lol.